Ok, in anticipation to those who are confused by such a piece of writing, that was just a creative approach I used to address something. That "something" was merely the phenomenon where I realised how little time we have left on Earth, and how we spend it meaninglessly.
It begins with me asking myself "Have I lived a meaningful life?", and then I stop to remember my past to see where things have went wrong and what can I do to improve life now. After taking myself out of that deep thought, I made comparisons with life now and ultimately, I see hope.
LOL. Okay that was just one paragraph that summed up the whole post below, no? haha. Well, the reason I did that was to.... make the blog posts more interesting.. I guess? haha dunno if that worked..but yeah. Read some creative writing and I was somehow inspired to do some.. I guess I'll stave that off from now on.
Oh well. Anyway, to the other things that've happened in the past month. I've taken the Myer-Briggs Personality Test and I am a ESTJ or an ESFJ. So Shannen and Janie, you were partially right. Although that psych dude said I could be occasionally T and F at times according to the scenario.
And the Athletics Carnival took place last Friday, and it was epic!!! X3 well, for others really but the epicness sorta passed on to me. The high jumps were like awesome!! the best jumpers were crossdressers and one Navi' dude. lol. Avatar fan much. xD Anyway, those dudes made a freakin' 160cm++ jump. Apart from that, the carnival was similar to that of the Swimming Carnival. So yeah. Just loitered around pretty much. Played some cards and that was about it. Pics are on FB so yeah. The convenience surpasses that of here ^^
Ok. Bedtime. Toodles. Will post a more elaborate post next time..
Sunday, 8 August 2010
Monday, 2 August 2010
Tick Tock.
My digital clock's colon blinked at me as time passes slowly.
Wait. Stop...
Okay, maybe that's an understatement.
Time is passing extremely quickly.
Even as I'm typing now, I cannot fully comprehend the situation.
In 24 hours,
I spend approximately 33.33% of it sleeping.
I spend approximately 25% of it in school.
I spend approximately 10% of it on studying at home.
I spend approximately 5-10% of it eating food.
I spend approximately 10% of my time doing chores.
I spend approximately 15% of my time doing whatever I like which is usually unfruitful for the most of me.
Out of that 15%, less than 5% of it is meaningful.
By following such a vague routine everyday, I've long ago lost track of my sense of time.
Days whizz past me quicker than ever.
Perhaps I'm getting older.
Perhaps I'm enjoying things now.
Perhaps I'm ignorant of these things.
What happened to those times where a second felt like an eternity?
I still see that 10 year old boy, wishing time would pass me by faster so that I may grow up.
Little did I realise that time had pressed the fast-forward button on me.
2x faster. 4x faster. 8x faster. 16x faster.
Had I not realised that things around me sped up like so, I would've wasted me life away, leaving me speechless at the time when the question was presented to me.
"Have I lived a meaningful life?"
I could only stare blankly at it.
Clueless.
Confused.
Disorientated.
Uncertain.
Anxious.
Afraid.
As I thought about it, sweat trickled down my cheekbone.
The drop hit the floor with a loud thud.
It was as if it caused a massive ripple in the clear waters of a still pond.
As that thud echoed around me, time re-winded it self and started replaying again.
Happy and sad times were revisited.
Laughter was shared.
Tears were shed.
Looking at those vivid episodes of my life, I couldn't help but give a bittersweet smile.
Then time pressed the fast-forward button.
This time however, I was able to grasp all those times which I carelessly discarded into the back of mind.
It was only then, did I realise the significance of those events that have occurred.
Regret filled my mind at my unawareness of life then.
The ripple in that pond slowly came to a halt and the waters were still once again.
The show came to an end when the most recent moments were played out.
The credits did not roll out.
There was no coda at the end of this piece of music.
I was left there in the quietude once again.
It was there that I managed to find the answer that I sought.
"There is more living than just being alive"
Deriving some hidden messages from this Latin proverb alone,
The gears in my head churned for a logical conclusion.
God knows how long it took me to answer this question.
But I finally found the answer.
I blinked as the clock beeped when it hit the hour.
I avert my eyes outside my window and to the sky.
The moon manifests itself in the horizon,
It's faint glow illuminated my hopes for the future as the past lay subtly in my shadows.
And in a very very long time, I started to smile as that glow gently filled the stratosphere.
Wait. Stop...
Okay, maybe that's an understatement.
Time is passing extremely quickly.
Even as I'm typing now, I cannot fully comprehend the situation.
In 24 hours,
I spend approximately 33.33% of it sleeping.
I spend approximately 25% of it in school.
I spend approximately 10% of it on studying at home.
I spend approximately 5-10% of it eating food.
I spend approximately 10% of my time doing chores.
I spend approximately 15% of my time doing whatever I like which is usually unfruitful for the most of me.
Out of that 15%, less than 5% of it is meaningful.
By following such a vague routine everyday, I've long ago lost track of my sense of time.
Days whizz past me quicker than ever.
Perhaps I'm getting older.
Perhaps I'm enjoying things now.
Perhaps I'm ignorant of these things.
What happened to those times where a second felt like an eternity?
I still see that 10 year old boy, wishing time would pass me by faster so that I may grow up.
Little did I realise that time had pressed the fast-forward button on me.
2x faster. 4x faster. 8x faster. 16x faster.
Had I not realised that things around me sped up like so, I would've wasted me life away, leaving me speechless at the time when the question was presented to me.
"Have I lived a meaningful life?"
I could only stare blankly at it.
Clueless.
Confused.
Disorientated.
Uncertain.
Anxious.
Afraid.
As I thought about it, sweat trickled down my cheekbone.
The drop hit the floor with a loud thud.
It was as if it caused a massive ripple in the clear waters of a still pond.
As that thud echoed around me, time re-winded it self and started replaying again.
Happy and sad times were revisited.
Laughter was shared.
Tears were shed.
Looking at those vivid episodes of my life, I couldn't help but give a bittersweet smile.
Then time pressed the fast-forward button.
This time however, I was able to grasp all those times which I carelessly discarded into the back of mind.
It was only then, did I realise the significance of those events that have occurred.
Regret filled my mind at my unawareness of life then.
The ripple in that pond slowly came to a halt and the waters were still once again.
The show came to an end when the most recent moments were played out.
The credits did not roll out.
There was no coda at the end of this piece of music.
I was left there in the quietude once again.
It was there that I managed to find the answer that I sought.
"There is more living than just being alive"
Deriving some hidden messages from this Latin proverb alone,
The gears in my head churned for a logical conclusion.
God knows how long it took me to answer this question.
But I finally found the answer.
I blinked as the clock beeped when it hit the hour.
I avert my eyes outside my window and to the sky.
The moon manifests itself in the horizon,
It's faint glow illuminated my hopes for the future as the past lay subtly in my shadows.
And in a very very long time, I started to smile as that glow gently filled the stratosphere.
Saturday, 15 May 2010
Argh.. the feeling of stress is really unpleasant.
Ok. I forgot to blog the previous month. I guess that's how much determination I have on keeping my blog alive. Meh.
Ever felt that you were well behind your classmates in studies? Well, yeah. That feeling ain't pleasant. Especially when you really want to score higher than someone..and fail to do so. Oh, and the times when actually you beat that someone by a mark or two, or occasionally get a draw, that person will beat you by like 10 marks or more in the next test :) Haha. I used to be in that situation and I still am.
Apart from that, life here's pretty... cold... and wet lately. Mowing the lawn is a pain since it takes up like 1.5 hours.. and killing those damned weeds are a pain in the butt. For some reason, they have the ability to revive themselves from the dead...even though I've pulled them out completely from the soil... which worsens the tedious task of eradicating them. I am contemplating on getting fake turf (fake grass) for my new house..like seriously!! At least they look green all year round and not yellow during summer... oh, and they look more realistic now since they've been improving.
A couple of weeks ago, there was this workshop.. a psychology workshop to be specific. It was intended to train students to be reliable friends to those who are troubled. 52 students applied, only 28 got picked randomly, and I was one of the 28. (Duh, or else I won't be blogging about this =P) Went there...got free lunch, free training, free certificate and a free badge..which looked a bit tacky. In the end, I now know to deal with people who have problems like, suicidal thoughts (er..lol?), sex life (er..lol again?), social problems, etc. Counselling people was also a new "skill" I've learnt. Well, yeah.. all those useful things were learnt in one day. Hopefully, the cert will look got on my resume =)
Well, back to studies.. mid-terms are around the corner.
Ever felt that you were well behind your classmates in studies? Well, yeah. That feeling ain't pleasant. Especially when you really want to score higher than someone..and fail to do so. Oh, and the times when actually you beat that someone by a mark or two, or occasionally get a draw, that person will beat you by like 10 marks or more in the next test :) Haha. I used to be in that situation and I still am.
Apart from that, life here's pretty... cold... and wet lately. Mowing the lawn is a pain since it takes up like 1.5 hours.. and killing those damned weeds are a pain in the butt. For some reason, they have the ability to revive themselves from the dead...even though I've pulled them out completely from the soil... which worsens the tedious task of eradicating them. I am contemplating on getting fake turf (fake grass) for my new house..like seriously!! At least they look green all year round and not yellow during summer... oh, and they look more realistic now since they've been improving.
A couple of weeks ago, there was this workshop.. a psychology workshop to be specific. It was intended to train students to be reliable friends to those who are troubled. 52 students applied, only 28 got picked randomly, and I was one of the 28. (Duh, or else I won't be blogging about this =P) Went there...got free lunch, free training, free certificate and a free badge..which looked a bit tacky. In the end, I now know to deal with people who have problems like, suicidal thoughts (er..lol?), sex life (er..lol again?), social problems, etc. Counselling people was also a new "skill" I've learnt. Well, yeah.. all those useful things were learnt in one day. Hopefully, the cert will look got on my resume =)
Well, back to studies.. mid-terms are around the corner.
Tuesday, 9 March 2010
Sublime peace
Okay. I kinda forgot to blog..even though I did say that it would be one of my resolutions this year. Darn it. Oh well. Only missed Feb.
Righto, time to sum up all that has happened over the last month.
- There was a Swimming Sports event
- There was camp
Now to the details.
Swimming sports is basically an activity where the whole school goes to the aquatic centre near our suburb for competitions and basically to chill out from the stress. The swimming relays aren't compulsory so those who can't be bothered, basically "lepaks" around. Like what me and my friends did xD. Prolly participate next year though. Looked like fun.. Apart from that, you'll see the final-year students dressing up really radically. Hmm.. you can find a Pac-Man dude, guys-only-cheerleading squad (with their double-D balloons and bras..God knows how they got them), pirates, ninjas, the hula skirt-briefs-topless guy gang and more. Really gay but funny =)
Camp was pretty awesome considering it's my first time going to Phillip Island. Food and accommodation was alright and the activities were cool =) There was this giant swing (30m high and yes they heave you up there for the drop with some a pulley mechanism hooked to your harness), canoeing, raft-making, maze (human sized.. pretty cool despite meeting several dead-ends), rope-obstacle course(involves balancing 7m off the ground with all the equipment provided) and flying-fox. Boy am I glad I was a scout..helped me out for the raft-making. And the swing? Extreeeeeeeme G-force.. like..if-you-are-afraid-of-heights-you-might-wet-your-pants-extreme. Of course, I love roller-coasters so it was fun xD well for me.. discovered a significant amount of people afraid of heights.. it was surprising actually.. ah well. They don't know what they're missing out =P
Oh and I went bowling with my youth group too! LoL.. For some reason, they think I am a pro bowler because..hmm.. I might have accidentally scored a strike on my first bowl..lol. Ok. Those who have seen me bowl obviously know that that never happens.. so came to realise that the lanes were kinda...short. Okay. Kinda is an understatement. Maybe at least 25% shorter than the ones we see in M'sia. I had the joy of owning them for the first match xD then fatigue kicked in and I pretty much got pwned in the second match. Meh.
Righto, time to sum up all that has happened over the last month.
- There was a Swimming Sports event
- There was camp
Now to the details.
Swimming sports is basically an activity where the whole school goes to the aquatic centre near our suburb for competitions and basically to chill out from the stress. The swimming relays aren't compulsory so those who can't be bothered, basically "lepaks" around. Like what me and my friends did xD. Prolly participate next year though. Looked like fun.. Apart from that, you'll see the final-year students dressing up really radically. Hmm.. you can find a Pac-Man dude, guys-only-cheerleading squad (with their double-D balloons and bras..God knows how they got them), pirates, ninjas, the hula skirt-briefs-topless guy gang and more. Really gay but funny =)
Camp was pretty awesome considering it's my first time going to Phillip Island. Food and accommodation was alright and the activities were cool =) There was this giant swing (30m high and yes they heave you up there for the drop with some a pulley mechanism hooked to your harness), canoeing, raft-making, maze (human sized.. pretty cool despite meeting several dead-ends), rope-obstacle course(involves balancing 7m off the ground with all the equipment provided) and flying-fox. Boy am I glad I was a scout..helped me out for the raft-making. And the swing? Extreeeeeeeme G-force.. like..if-you-are-afraid-of-heights-you-might-wet-your-pants-extreme. Of course, I love roller-coasters so it was fun xD well for me.. discovered a significant amount of people afraid of heights.. it was surprising actually.. ah well. They don't know what they're missing out =P
Oh and I went bowling with my youth group too! LoL.. For some reason, they think I am a pro bowler because..hmm.. I might have accidentally scored a strike on my first bowl..lol. Ok. Those who have seen me bowl obviously know that that never happens.. so came to realise that the lanes were kinda...short. Okay. Kinda is an understatement. Maybe at least 25% shorter than the ones we see in M'sia. I had the joy of owning them for the first match xD then fatigue kicked in and I pretty much got pwned in the second match. Meh.
Wednesday, 6 January 2010
Missed the fireworks this year, but I've still got more to come, right?
2010. Hmm.. ever heard the lines that go - "The young pursue their future while the old cling on to the past"? That line comes to mind every new year... for an unknown reason =) I guess it reminds me to balance both my feelings for the future and the past.
Ok this is the first post of the year! I shall try to maintain "a post a month". One of my resolutions. Yes, you may add that in to the resolution list you made me write, Sze.
Well, it was quite unofficial, but I came back to lovely M'sia for a nice lil' holiday since the 5th of Dec. Went to Bali after that, then to S'pore. And I've settled down for a bit until the HK trip next week. Went out in between the trips and watched several movies. Boy, this is a really undescriptive summary XD
Ok this is the first post of the year! I shall try to maintain "a post a month". One of my resolutions. Yes, you may add that in to the resolution list you made me write, Sze.
Well, it was quite unofficial, but I came back to lovely M'sia for a nice lil' holiday since the 5th of Dec. Went to Bali after that, then to S'pore. And I've settled down for a bit until the HK trip next week. Went out in between the trips and watched several movies. Boy, this is a really undescriptive summary XD
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